Make Space & The Rest Will Follow

Take a pause. Deep breath for a count of four….Hold it in and in 4…3…2…1 let it go. How do you feel? Good? A little more alert? Perhaps awake? Amazing isn’t it. Perhaps you feel as if you’re lighter. Maybe you released a bit of tension you had no idea you were holding. That one single breath just added a whole lot of goodness to your body. Imagine if you just took a pause for even just a minute to focus on your breathing. I am sure you feel all of the energy super high at the moment. If you haven’t been sleeping much, you are not alone.

The energy is super high, there’s a shift collectively happening and a lot of people are feeling it. Not to mention this mercury retrograde really shook a lot of things up. Be grateful for the things you’ve learned, for being uncomfortable and being pushed to grow.

It’s the perfect time to pause and take a look around your home and do a little declutter. If you’ve been feeling a bit stuck anxious at home… take a look around. It might be time to create that space to make room for new exiting things. I don’t mean… get rid to purchase more. I think the simplicity of everything creates this harmonious flow to really help you relax and get you in a space to welcome new and exiting things.

You might not think decluttering as a spiritual practice— but it can be. Your home is your sacred place and if your home has now become the place where you also work– a balance needs to be created. I recommend looking into feng shui or just tuning into what it is you want to manifest, you create your space to add a little harmonious flow to relax and get the good vibes going. Cleaning your home and getting rid of everything and anything you no longer need can help let the universe know that you’re making room for all of those good things to make your way.

I hope this little tip will help get a kick start to a nice harmonious practice and to help you with the art of letting go. The art of letting go is so important when it comes to manifesting. Remember micro reflects the macro it is all connected.

Just Take A Pause

The fall season is finally here. Mercury is in retrograde and instead of being fearful of how it may impact my life, I’ve been pretty freaking excited. I am kicking off a new project.

I am so grateful to be out of the funk. I am so happy for the new month. Each day is such a blessing. The opportunity of a new beginning. It’s the most exciting time of the year for me. I love Halloween and Día De los Muertos is right around the corner. The changing color of the leaves and the temperature is finally cooling off. Mother nature urges us to slow down.

Mercury Retrograde has been quite interesting. For me , it has tested me in my relationship and of course communication. I have been bumping heads with people and it comes down to communication. It has been quite the experience. The lesson: to be patient, to give people their space to calm down. Just be compassionate. The world needs more love and there’s a whole lot happening in the sky.

We’re almost done just hang in there. It’s the most magical time of the year. Take a pause connect with mother earth enjoy all of the scenery and reflect back on all of the good things that happened this year. Even the struggles. They help us evolve and grow and always remember to stay present.

In A Funk

Getting out of a funk is hard but it can be done. Last week, I had quite a low period. I noticed old patterns return. In the middle of all of it, I asked myself “what can I do to pass this period gracefully?” The answer of course was not just linear.

I was called upon going back to meditating. With everything going on, I would try and squeeze in a few meditation practices. I committed time out of my day to really sit and work on my breathing. That has definitely helped calm down my nerves.

I also re-picked up the habit to focus on things that I am grateful for. When thinking about a list. it doesn’t have to be elaborate. It can be simple things like, “I am grateful for having a car that drives me to work” or “I am grateful for waking up this morning and being able to see the sun, my kids etc”. This will help get that vibration back up to where it needs to be and will definitely help lift your mood.

Write it out, do voice notes. Get everything that you’re thinking or feeling out. I’ve written probably the most I have this past week than ever before. I needed to get it out on paper. Everything. I did a big verbal dump and at the end I meditated. I felt just so much lighter. I even meditated which helped a lot.

It’s the season of change and don’t be afraid if you’re feeling a bit low. Trust the process.

Sometimes, Things Are Just Not Okay

This is weird. Coming on here to write a post when I energetically I don’t feel ok. I feel like I have this big dark cloud and I just want to sleep. I’ve noticed old patterns resurfacing and last week I had a panic attack. People have this concept that those who are in their spiritual journey have it all together. How many of you have seen a guru when they’re down? At the end of the day, I don’t think some feel comfortable with sharing that. It’s not good for their brand. I have no product to sale. I have no image to maintain, I’m not offering any services. I am just here trying to figure out life. Trying to better myself, so fuck it. I have bad days and this is me in my raw form.

I should be feeling ok. I should actually be jubilant. Yeah, fucking jubilant. I’ve manifested some great things. I have advanced in my Ifa practice. I have so many things to be grateful for. I have some exciting changes happening and I’m getting things ready to launch my own podcast. So why am I down? That’s the big fucking question.

The journey is not linear, it’s not. As I am writing this I feel kind of in a trance. Life is not linear. The journey is not easy. Life isn’t meant to be easy. It’s suppose to challenge us and we’re supposed to feel low. It gets us into a state of vulnerability. To access those emotions that we have pushed down rather than work through it. Who wants to be torn open to work on all of their trauma and self-doubt? It sounds awful; but that’s exactly what needs to be done. I am being challenged to bring all of those things out into the open. As I write, I have an image of myself in my mind sitting crossed legged on the floor.. big box, just picking up letters. Makes sense. I do write… a lot.

I have been feeling pretty good. I have been growing a lot but I just hit an uncomfortable wall. You will too. It’s there because our soul knows it’s about to do some growing and it’s going to be pretty fucking uncomfortable. Once you cross that bridge and make it through it will all make sense.

So, I will surrender. I will surrender to not feeling ok, but still put in the work of getting it out of my system. Of writing down everything that I am grateful for. Of meditating and listening to chants. Of embracing the idea of becoming like water so I can just flow. This is not a happy post. I don’t have the truth. I am just like you in this journey. Growing, learning to be more compassionate, to have an infinite love for all.

I will be ok and if you’re under your own dark cloud, you’ll be ok too. Hang in there. It does get better.

A New Chapter

The spiritual journey is not linear. There is no linear timeline where if you do A then B will follow. All you can do is let go and trust the process. No, we’re not all magically healed. It’s a constant journey, a work that is done daily. Yes, some days are easier than others. The bottom line is we’re all human. This is the human experience. To feel everything experience love, lost, grief, depression.

I hit a bit of a rough patch were past trauma came back up to teach me that there is work still to be done. I am very thankful for that. As my spiritual journey continues, I am getting ready for another ceremony in Ifa. I am in preparations and I am excited for this new chapter in my spiritual journey. Although things may hit a low vibration, I have learned to trust the process and leave everything to my guides and the higher being. I have full trust and now that they will guide me to get me to where I need to go.

If you’re going through a rough time, now that you are not alone. It will be ok, seek help and reach out to your friends or family, this too shall pass. Just always remember to keep the light on.

Another Lap Around The Sun

A week ago I celebrated my birthday. While I didn’t have a chance to travel abroad to spend it with my family in Central America, I still had a perfect day.

I woke up in a reflective mood, starting my morning off with a mediation and clearing my line. I had breakfast and was just in such a grateful loving state. I reflected back on my life. I’ve learned that living in the present and making space for new things are so important. It’s been almost a month since I did my ritual in my spiritual journey. I definitely feel different. I will make a post about that later.

I’ve learned the gift that is to be alive. To enjoy the company of your family. To allow yourself to be loved. To not re-live the past or worry about the future. You miss all of the blessings that you have going on right now!

I am working on several projects to make this blog a little more engaging. I am hoping you will continue to join me!

Much love as always!

Buckle Up!

We are in the middle of mercury retrograde and eclipse season. I have felt these sudden shifts to my core. Ever since I began my spiritual awakening, I have began paying close attention to certain things. One of them being eclipse season and what it clears for me. I had quite the realization of some pretty heavy shit I still need to work through and clear. That my friends, is the beauty of life. You’re work is never done. Once you have taken the plunge to really live your life’s purpose and work on yourself, there are always things to clear. In my case, it’s my relationship with my mother.

I want to begin by saying, I absolutely adore my mother. Our communication has not always been its best. It’s curious really, my higher self, my guides, god (yes, god or creator. I do believe in a higher power), angels all decided to switch the light bulb on to make me realize something. On the work that I have left to do. I am barely getting the grasp of astrology. I still don’t understand it fully but I am beginning to be able to follow along and pay attention to certain patterns.

It started with a simple disagreement between my mother and I. It turned into a full blown argument. No yelling on my part, I have gotten better at that; but I became so caught up in the moment, that certain things were brought up. I don’t know if its just first generation kids who have this issue with their parents. I noticed that for us, kids of immigrants, our upbringing is exactly how it would be if we would have been born in the mother land. As children, we’re exposed to the “American Way” of doing things and come up with our own concept of what we think is correct. It’s a blend of both worlds, a representation of us. That’s when things go askew. My mother’s defense mechanism, what she was taught, was to take arguments in a painful route. What I mean by that, she immediately goes for the jugular, insults are said, she brings up the past, and a language of complete belittlement.

It’s what she was taught from my grandmother. I don’t put the blame on her but what I will hold her accountable for is for repeating the pattern. She is in her 70s… generationally speaking we don’t really understand each other. My fault was perhaps critiquing her too harshly. In trying to make her realize the language that she was using… I began to question her in a way that made her more agitated. Then I proceeded to ask what s the point of living in the past? It does no good to bring up the past, you cant change it. What’s done is done.

So what did I learn? You can’t change those who refuse to change. My mother is not willing to change that part of herself. Her excuse is “ I’m 71, if I didn’t change back then, why should I now?”. For myself, it’s not a valid argument. I am a true believer that humans should change no matter what age. To evolve is to grow. When you meet or have someone in your life who is not budging, all I can do is take a page from Jesus and turn the other cheek. That was my lesson, to break an old pattern that cause unnecessary trauma. To accept that she will not break that pattern and all I can do is be better and learn to be humble, bite my tongue or just simply walk away.

I thank god, my guides, angels for the guidance. To able to see this during a mercury retrograde and eclipse season. It showed me the shadow work that I still have to do with myself. It also showed me how to be better understanding and further accept that some things won’t change but I can still be compassionate and loving through it all. We’re just at the beginning.

Be gentle with yourself, love yourself through the process. This is not easy, its not meant to be easy. It will show you things about yourself and you’ll cry but just remember. You need to get through the bad stuff to grow more beautifully. Learn from the Phoenix, we are all being reborn from the ashes.

Clearing The Line

If you have been following my blog for a while, you may have read about me being an avid listener of “A Line Within” Podcast. I have been listening to Ashley Wood for about two years now. I began listening to her podcast when I decide to get more serious about my spiritual journey. She teaches a practice of clearing the line, which I find very similar to meditation.

I have been clearing my line every day this week. Actually, I do this at work. I have noticed that it has helped me keep my cool and feel less stressed. The messages that I receive are quite simple. They’re usually “stay in the now” “stay focused”. The simplicity of the messages are actually quite beautiful. They have helped me tremendously to stay in the present moment.

I have a tendency to be all over the place that I easily lose focus. Just taking a minute to silence my brain grounds me and helps me stay on track. That’s the beauty of it. It takes it just takes a few minutes to ground yourself and be open to whatever messages may come through. They can be so simple but really have a profound impact. All you have to do is be open to receive the guidance.

My Heart Is Cracked Open

There are so many shifts happening in my life, that my heart has been cracked open and I feel this immense love for everyone. We are in the month of May and in just a few days my Babalawo will be back in town and this time, it will be my turn to do a ritual.

I had a period of low vibration energy which felt a bit of a test from the universe and spirit to see if I had indeed learned what I needed to. I believe I did. I’ve meditated, gone back to nature, pampered myself and have finally stepped out into the world and this time I want to be seen.

For the longest time, I’ve wanted to remain in the shadows, not to be seen and bring little to almost no attention to myself. But why? When we are born to shine?

When you live more in truth, honest with yourself it’s like you’re suddenly cracked open. I have expanded, learned to let go of some things, forgive myself and just love. Love to love. Love all, everyone even if it’s hard. The world needs a little more compassion and love. When you heal yourself you heal the world.

Love. The Answer is Love.

I would like to say that I am very organized. I would like to sit here and say that I am on top of everything and I get everything done on time. The truth is, I am a procrastinator. Although, my spiritual journey has helped a lot, I still need to really buckle down. This goes especially with my meditation practice. Even though I see the benefits for myself, I still go a couple of days without actually doing it. Ideally I would like to make it a daily practice.

I love meditation because being present has allowed me to really know myself. Learn about myself and just experience love in an unconditional way for everyone. I get that much needed pause and check in with myself. It has taught me to get to know my own intuition. Knowing your intuition which is an ability we all have, is so great. I believe that your intuition is connected to your higher self. It will not stir your wrong. The thing is intuition and ego have very similar voice.

With that being said, the messages can be so simple. Earlier this week I had an experience. I was doing my morning meditation, I kept hearing a title of a song. It just kept nudging over and over again. I decided to pop the song on after the meditation and listen to it. The song was “within you and without you” by The Beatles. All I can say is wow. The lyrics of the song was exactly what I needed to hear. I must have listened to this song a million times in the past. Sung it in the car or in the shower. It is a song that I am familiar with, but I don’t think I really listened to it until now. I was still sitting in my meditation pose. I heard the song word for word and it felt like it was the first time.

The first couple of lyrics I took it as recognizing that we aren’t always present. There’s this space and we hide ourselves our true essence by busying our minds. Especially know that we are connected to our technology more than ever. There are so many distractions, how present are you? Are you here? Then my chest was split open when it got to the line about love. Love. The fact that love is the greatest thing that could really save us all.

Love. Such a power and beautiful word. But it’s not love in a romantic sense. Although that is beautiful too. Is this absolute pure love. Is this infinite love that you feel for everything and everyone. As I was sitting there perhaps really listening to the song for the very first time, I finally knew what it meant. I understood why I kept hearing the title of the song repeating over and over again in my head during my meditation. For the first time, I was feeling this immense love that made me feel connected to the creator, to the highest realm. It was love in a way so pure that it’s not tainted by lust or anything else. The only thing that I could compare it to is the love that Jesus had for everyone.

I know that talking about religion can be a tricky thing. Although, I really didn’t grow up in a household that was particularly religious, I do have memories of going to church in my younger years. I remember reading and hearing about Jesus and what a compassionate and loving man he was to everyone. I never understood it until that moment. I listening to the song a couple of more times really soaking in everything that it was saying.

I finally perhaps for the first time, finally understood what all the spiritual teachers, yogis, and other spiritual leaders mean when love can heal the earth. In that moment, I knew what it was capable of. But it’s a journey that is inward. I think that is were we as humans fail. The change has to come within so it can radiate out.

We’re looking for things that are external, I don’t think I would have reached that conclusion if it had not been for my morning meditation. In those few minutes I learned so much that it made me hungry for more. I’ve had another “aha” moment. It has changed and filled my life with so much love and joy that I am forever grateful. I think I am finally learning what its like to love. Just love. Love myself, earth, and everyone else.